February 11, 2009

I Had a Dream

I had a dream last night: I was on a road trip in the country when I got the notion to turn off a side road for a variation in scenery.

I drove to a bucolic village out of which stretched an extremely steep and curved road. I stopped, backed up, and then gunned the little car I was driving and just barely chugged to the top.

Once there, I saw I had come upon a steep ravine. The road extended onto a bridge over a deep valley with two or three rivers below. But the bridge was not solid. It consisted of a narrow strips of iron grating that looked like open netting—simply impassable. But then I saw it was possible to cross if I made certain the tires balanced on two narrow, framed-out grids. It looked treacherous, but I really wanted to be brave. I wanted to do it.

I took several minutes to assess, took in a big breath and proceeded. I did not look down. I made it across. Once there, I drove back. The second time across, I dared myself to look down, with nothing but air (no protective rails or safety anything) between me and the open canyon below.

That's the end. I awoke, glad I conjured up the nerve to traverse the old bridge. (I do not frequently succeed in my dreams.)

Today I clicked open my favorite rag to read Floyd Norris' NY Times blog
headline: "Job Losses Are Scarier Now." I studied his analysis, "...why consumer fears can be much greater than they were when the overall unemployment rate was higher."

I decided not to be afraid. That's it.


  1. I don't pretend to be an interpreter of dreams, but to me your dream clearly illistrates your belief in yourself. You are not afraid to take risks and while it may be very scarey, you also come out on top in the end, not at the bottom of the canyon!

    You go Broke Girl!
    from Probably a Future Bag Lady

  2. That's exactly it! When one job ends, we don't know what comes next - and if you're faced with switching industries or moving to another city for your next job, well ... little wonder it takes much longer to find your next gig.

    I'm an optimist, though and I like your dream - yes, the bridge is rickety. But we'll get across. :)

  3. Carnegie On Optimism

    Most of the troubles of humanity are imaginary and should be laughed out of court. It is folly to cross a bridge before you come to it, or to bid the devil good morning until you meet him. All is well until the stroke falls, and even then, nine times out of 10, it is not as bad as anticipated. A wise man is the confirmed optimist.

    Andrew Carnegie, industrialist

  4. Dear Probably a Future Bag Lady,

    I had a friend, who, after her husband ditched her for a much younger and less intelligent model, had valid reason to fear for her financial future. But she always said, "I may end up a bag lady, but you can bet I'm going to be carrying a Lord & Taylor bag!"

    Not exactly sure all that infers, but there was a touch of optimism and humor wedged in there. Good news: in her late middle age, she developed a career as a talk radio host and so far, things turned better than she ever expected.